I can not believe how fast this year has gone. It's been a bumpy road, but not without its joys.
I have had a lot of difficult moments from "its not fair" to " who am I to question His will". I was angry at times at the unfairness but He so quickly reminded me that there is a bigger picture and I have to trust that what is is meant for whatever reasons.
I can't say that its been an easy journey. I have honestly felt the farther away we get from the time Lilly was here the harder its been. It will be two years in February which I still can not believe! I guess you could say year two was harder than year one, but I hear some are harder than others.
Mornings have been hard on me again and I just am finding it hard to be joyful at times, and not for lack of trying. I still am happy but am missing her at the same time.
I feel blogging helped me keep a more positive perspective so I really am making an effort to continue to do that. I know I keep saying that lol. I just feel its my outlet and for awhile I wasn't allowing myself the time I needed for my emotions on missing Lilly. I have vented to my mom, my husband, and my best friend, and two coworkers so that has helped. But I could only do that every now and then because of life happenings.
This post is a huge ramble which is one of the things I love about blogging. I can ramble :)
Go ahead and ramble, it's allowed! I have heard some years are harder than others so the 2ndlast must be that way for you. I hate how we get farther away from the time we spent with them. But then it's another year closer to being with them (even though that still feels so far away!).
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