Been listening a lot to the song "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry.
The words,
"Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother. She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors"
"The sharp knife of a short life"
and
"I've had just enough time" resonate with me. They comfort me, as much as a grieving mother who still misses her baby can be comforted.
Just missing Lilly ever so much. Bittersweet. Heart aches. Honored to be her mother. Proud to have her as my daughter, but still and always ... missing her.