For her funeral, we dressed her in yellow. We were shopping for her outfit the day before her service and the dress stood out to me. I wasn't sure it was going to fit her being that it was a 0-3 month size dress. Thankfully my husband talked me into getting it and it fit her perfectly! Every day I pass this dress shop and the mannequin's dresses are changed at least weekly if not more. They've been the same all week and today all the dresses were new and YELLOW!!! I almost walked in there to buy one of the dresses.
We ordered the flowers for Lilly the morning of her graveside service and we wanted lilies for obvious reasons. Turns out the flower shop had just ONE open lily. Guess what color it was? YELLOW!!!! And the day before Lilly's service, my husband and father in law went to order a blown up picture of Lilly the examples for sizes to choose from had a picture of a lily on them. I realize lilies are very common flowers, but I think she was with us then too.
We didn't plan it but we all ended up wearing something pink to the funeral. It started with my husband's tie. He had chosen a tie with little light pink roses as a design on the tie. I wanted to match him. I wore black of course, but my top was a more pinkish fuchsia. From our children to our parents, each of us wore something pink. The funny thing was that Lilly was in yellow, so we weren't matching, but it was nice that it worked out the way it did. Its so amazing how things work out.
Another memory I would like to share is when Jim and I dressed Lilly for her graveside service. We each put on one of her shoes, and low and behold I put the left shoe on her right foot. I have done that to each and every one of my children, even Lilly. It is so nice to have that as a memory. I can not tell you how much it means to me.
Today, I reflect back on the time we had with Lilly and how amazingly joyous it was! It still is joyous to remember. Its just sad that she is not here with us, but at the same time she is with our Lord and I can't be sad for her. Just miss her!
Missing Lily with you.
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing your wonderful memories. Such a special way to spend the day :)
ReplyDeletewhat a beautiful thing to be able to remember the babies...yes as you would know it today this friday is 3 months since her burial as well...unfortunately i was so distraught over the events i didnt handle ANYTHING at all...i regret it today but at the time there was no choice, i just was not mentally capable of doing anything but cry and scream...hearing how lilly makes herself knows is just so precious..what a lucky mother and father to have such a powerful little girl..xoxo..thinking of you today and always
ReplyDeleteOh what beautiful memories. I completely know what you mean about feeling that the memories are slipping away. I am so afraid of forgetting. I think that somehow we will never forget though. It is just that the grief is not so, I guess fresh, is the word I want to use. Thank you so much for sharing your memories with us. I am just awestruck evertime I get on your blog by the smile on sweet little Lilly's face. Newborns do not typically smile, but she surely is in this picture. Love and hugs coming your way.
ReplyDeleteOh wow, it sounds like such a special day. A day to remember just her and all the moments you have. Whenever I see 'yellow', I think I'm going to think of Lilly now. :) I think she was with you very strongly today! XO
ReplyDeleteI am glad you have so many great memories and that you had a good day remembering Lily!
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about the memories fading. I think they will become hazier with time which is why I think it's so important to write them down while you can remember them. I'm glad you did! I bet Lily looked beautiful in yellow!
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